another day of my life, all I can do is keep breathing.

I wish to go back home early. Just after finished activity, I was sitting alone at the bus stop, watching cars and people busy heading for their destination, I cant stop myself from thinking how much i really wish to be home at this moment. I love my course and most important i enjoy what i am studying except micro cause the lecturer pronounciation is kinda of weird, shape become sex..=.= so, i dont wanna comment about it. They are pity too cause in order to be a researcher to carry out the reasearch by using government fund, they have to be a lecturer. I guess that is why so many people here got their phd or Dr but they are still bad in explaining stuff.



I miss spending time with my family. I miss everyone so much. My fren here will be going home early except me. I will be here alone to study and help them take attendance. I really dont mind doing all that but I really wish I can be like them to go home early. I just cant wait to see how is my place looks like now, a land which i have been staying for so long will have a big change soon, I thought i can change my parents mind cause i really love my place so much. but it seems like it is still not something i am able to do. I have tried my best to show my parents about what we can do in this land, make it like a eco-tourism all that but still it doesnt work at all. Anyway, I guess everything happens for a reason.




Today, one of my fren asked me about the job prospect for plant science. We talked about the difference between biotech and plant science as well as the jobs available for plant science.I did mention that my bf might further study in plant breeding. Then I asked her opinion what if her bf is going oversea study and might be working in other country one day , will her give up her current life and follow her bf? Without any hesitation, she answered yes only if she would be offered a job too. I question her back , you are willing to leave your family here and go oversea? her answered once again was the same. I think maybe she is not that closed with her family cause she doesnt seem to care to go home. =S *shrug* I dont know. I seriously is uncertain of my future at this point. I worry the new life that my family and I have to go through, I worry the future life that my bf and I have to go through. but anyway, those are not something i am able to control. However, When it is time, I will be able to know. Good or bad, as long as everyone is having a life they want, I will be happy for them.