2008 ~

2008 ,another new year has come.
Nothing difference this year.. i am getting busy and busier..
No time to update my blog...
I just finished reading one of my best friends' blog...
I didn't know he was angry with me...I was so sorry to him and angry myself too..
I have been trying so hard to keep in touch with all of my best friends..I will call everyone out when I got holiday..that is the only way that i get to see all of them..but Some of them just keeps rejecting me with thousand of reasons.Every times, I am the only one who need to ask them out and call them if they are coming ..I really find no points why I must do like that,I care about them, but they never think the same way as i did..
Sometimes,I really just hope to invite few people who can turn up enough. But ,when i do like that, some people will blame me for neglecting them..do they ever think about my condition? I hate myself for holding tight to everyone that I used to be friends...I hate myself for holding that stupid gathering until making someone annoy with me..I am so sorry..I didn't mean it..really...and I promised it won't happen next time anymore as I ain't going to waste my time to organize any gathering ...
I am tired ...=.= sigh....


human changes all the time..
if not the past memories which still holding me to them...
I think i wouldn't be so caring to them...
My feeling towards you will always stay from the day we met until the day you have gone...
Our friendship Died in the day you become different...
No matter how many times you try to make me into hot water..
No matter how many times you backstab me...
No matter how many times you betray me...

I will still appreciate you for being so helpful
and brought me so many happy memories before this...
I still take you as my best friends even though you are no longer the same...
If one day, you come back to me...
I will still take you as my best friends...
I hope we can share all the memories and secrets together again..
I really don't know what is wrong with our friendship..
I alwasy take it serious...
I really don't know thing will change so fast in such a short period..
I am so sorry for leaving you all...
I know it is too late when i went back to there again..
But I thought You all will really happy for me for being chosen to a good school...
I thought you all will always the same...
I thought our friendship can really last forever...

Apparently , Friendship is just like a plant...
you must always watering and fertilise it....
Once you lazy to take care of it,
It will die off...

I am sorry...
I didn't realize my left will bring you all such a big change....


~ Saint vs Sin~