Try to smile.....

I am thinking whether the God is existing or not?....
I am wondering why good people is always the one who is going to die first while bad people is always the one who last survive?

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What leads me to these Questions?






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Today, I was chatting with 2 of my best friends during the recess time. We were sitting near to the form 5 block. My another classmate saw us and she came to talk with my friends.Suddenly her clique also came nearer to the place we were sitting at. They talked,played and joked around as usual. I kept chatting with my friends. Out of nowhere, my classmate and her clique ran away without letting 3 of us knowing what has happened. I just knew somebody pushed behind my back told me the teacher was coming then she quickly disappeared. I thought the teacher was my class teacher.So, I don't care too much and planning to go back class. At the moment i want to leave that place,now only I noticed a teacher was standing beside and staring right at me.I saw her and I gave her a smiled as a greeting to her. But her expression told me that something bad was going to happen.[Yea, I am right]..The teacher started to blah blah blah and scolding me without asking anything. I was so surprising that she didn't even make sure first before she was going to open her mouth. I was stunned at the moment, stared at her as if I am the one who commit 'crime'.I keep smiling at her and let her finished her 'sentences'. After she yelling at me to go back to my class.Then I only left....

I feel like what the heck she is thinking and worst what am I doing...
Sigh* whatever...I just don't want to explain too much for her. The more I try to explain,the more she would scold..So whatever...


Today Lesson- Sometimes we must learn to be a bad person. Be smart and tricky, you will live  longer...Nobody will go to salute a good people. Good is equalling to stupid in reality...Only those who know how to take short cut will reach their destination. Those who just stick to the rule will only lead themselves to the trouble.
Thinking back...

I used to be a bad person,I found out i am not born ed to be like that..Some people may try so hard to learn become a thief,but somehow they just couldn't make it and end up become a police.There is not everybody can become a thief.Everything must has potential,even become a thief too. How sarcastic right? ha ha...


I just want to find some places to let out my feeling in order to balance myself.
Although i know this is not the right way to do so..
But,in order to survive i should be self-fish.. isn't it? [struggling between right and wrong ]



---Saint Vs Sin ----