"*"* Reaccept who I am ~

Too often I choose to give up my decision.
I give up when i find out it is no longer suitable for me
I give up when i feel unhappy with it
I give up when i do not like it
I give up when thing is not under my expectation
I give up when thing is starting to screw me up







**I am so glad to have parents that always standing by my side and let me decide my future...
Why i feel like this way?






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Well, It is when i start knowing that there is not every parents will let their children choose their own ways..


Most of my friends around me are living "their parents' life"..
I seem to be very lucky compare with them...and yet i used to blame my parents for letting me make up my decision myself and never stop me even though they know i will end up badly....I blamed them for letting me fell down ....I blamed them for not giving me their hands when i fell down but let me to stand up myself ..



Try to recall back, I am too headstrong and stubborn on my way ...My parents already tried their best...They used to advise me and hope that i will listen to them...But At the moment, all the advices just like the water vapours which seemed to exist for a few second and then disappeared instantly from the earth surface..
I couldn't hear it at all..


Now, I am once again given chance to choose my way again....
Yea.....My decision lead me to another same life again
It is just like before....Everything is still the same!!!
I do not like it and tired of it....really.... I hope to give up again...


Nevertheless,I do not give up this time...Maybe it is still not yet time to give up or just I wana try my best before giving up? something is pulling me back....
Don't know why,I just want to stand untill the last minutes...
Maybe I just want to see what will happen ,if I keep holding on till the last moment ...
I shall see about another different ending.....
Life is definitely filled with choices, sometimes you might blame your parents or God for letting you make up the wrong choice...but I could tell you that even God and your parents make up the decision for you, still you won't be satisfying with it..At last you will still blame at God and
your parents...


Wrong choice is a choice too...No matter how hard ,how detail you try to make up your decision, sometimes Things will still be the same in the end....It is FAte...and something destined to happen in your life...
Hence, acceptance and thankful are very important ....
It is the only thing that will make you feel happy...


I am happy now not because I make the right choice....
It is because I am able to reaccept who i am and respect my own decision...