Frustration~

Every since I started my form six life, life doesn't seem to be smooth for me.In fact it is very challenging than before. I cant deny that majority does not have an easy life as well...Just I am human too, I dont want to ask for sympathy ,it is not my real self .I just want to express my feeling at here...a place nobody knows me ,a place which people wouldnt read at your boring article..
Well...
About my study, I am getting worse...No matter how hard or does that being counted as working hard? I dont know... I keep motivating myself, but I seem to be already resistant to my bad result... just the bacteria already resistant to the antibiotic..yea right, I am a bio-student and ironically I dont know biology at all...I just got the lowest marks for my chemistry today...I didn't mention it to anyone that I really care about my marks although I show no sulk at all towards it..
I can't even share it with my best friends...As my problem is just a very small matter compare to the problem which he is facing now which is thousands and millions time serious than mine..
Ever since his mother had past away, his life is getting tougher and tougher. I know he is trying hard to go through his everyday life. No matter how hard he is trying, he still will face some kind of obstacle where his friends get into serious accidents, being unconsciously in hospital,he himself even rammed into an oil palm tree while riding motorbike on estate. And now her god sis's mom is in a very critical stage, only got 17% survive rate..I feel so helpless when he needs to face so much of problems... I cant stop thinking that myself is not the one for him, I cant even console him when he needs someone to share his problem as I also got my own problem.. I hope someone is there to share with me too and I know I cant share with him as his problem is very serious compare to my problem..I cant stop asking myself why others' problem is only considered as serious problem while my problem seem to be doesnt matter at all...
I hope to express my feeling to him, but i cant... I just get stuck...I know this kind of mindset is very childish, but i am a human too, I cant always be so understanding towards other while being cruel at myself...
I even think why am I so unlucky to being so lucky... his mom past away last year, and now his god sis's mom is having a tiny hope to survive... I cant console his heart not because i dont know what to say, it is because i never lost someone I am close and love so much in my whole life,I am not qualify to teach people what to do... I thank God for giving me a good life with parents still on my side taking care of me, I dont need to worry about anything ..almost nothing that i need to worry about and I appreciate this moment that i'm still having as i know it wont last forever...
He always think that my life is a bed of roses while he cant see the thorns within it... i am fine if he thinks like that , i dont blame him as i know what he is going through is very tough..
At some points, I feel myself is so unlucky for being lucky is because my life is too perfect for me to say something to those who is miserable than me.. I feel myself is not qualify to do so,and i know they do feel that too... anyway...May God bless him always....